crisis /ˈkrʌɪsɪs/

crisis /ˈkrʌɪsɪs/, noun (plural: crises /ˈkrʌɪsiːz/)

- A time when a difficult or important decision must be made

In addition to the identity crisis that every twenty-something is going through, I'm also going through a major decision making crisis at the moment.

As many of you know I tend to procrastinate and be very indecisive about every decision I have to make. If choosing a shampoo brand or an ice-cream flavour causes me immense anxiety and frustration, imagine what it's like trying to decide what to do with my life.

So as everyone knows, my original plan was to do an internship in Toronto after this semester ends. Well, I've got two weeks of school left and three weeks until I have to move out of here, and I still haven't made any decisions.

I talked to Fanshawe's career counselor and she said that I might easily get an internship in Toronto, but reminded me that it might be hard to find an affordable living arrangement, since apparently hotels in Toronto don't offer it to interns (not really a surprise but I'd still been hoping on it). She recommended Muskoka's resorts to me, which kind of sound appealing but kind of don't. I mean I'm sure I would enjoy it in any case but somehow I just don't feel like going there.

And while I loooove Canada, I'm yearning to explore and experience another country. Everyone I know here will be gone to their own adventures by then, so I would have to start anew, again, anyway. 

Right now the plan that's starting to sound the best is to go to Finland from here, maybe work for a couple of months to fill my travelling fund, and then do an internship in England instead. One thing I know for sure is that I do indeed want to do the internship now instead of going to school in August. And this would make a lot of thing a lot easier, like paperwork with the school and figuring out the insurance and work permits and stuff like that.

But since I seem to change my mind as often as a bat my eyelids, who knows where I'll end up. I also really want to go to Australia and New Zealand, but maybe it's better to stay at least a little bit closer to home for now.

One thing that adds up to this crisis is that I still have a lot of things to do and places to go before I leave. I haven't even visited Toronto yet, which is an absolute must. But I will not leave this continent (haha almost said condiment, oops) before I've visited New York City, that's for sure. I'll go there alone if I have to. I also really really really want to visit Los Angeles and Montreal, Quebec and Ottawa, too. But, the fact is, I'm still a student, not a millionaire. Of course I will (hopefully) have time time to come back here later in life and visit all those places, and seems like that's exactly what I have to settle for for now. AND I still need to go to an NHL game! Just to make my brothers green of jealousy!

So, any opinions? Any advice? Both are more than welcome!!!!!!! Pleeeease someone help me!

My goal in life is to get to a high enough position to be able to hire an assistant who makes every decision for me. My Gemini mind just can't handle it....

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In other news:

Four of my courses ended a couple of weeks ago so now I have a lot of free time, yay! Well actually I'm kinda bored a lot... haha. 

My new schedule above and my old schedule below

What else... school, parties, hanging out with friends. That's pretty much it.

At Easter I am going to Barrie! There are some old friends of my grandparents living there, and they want to meet me. I've met two of them once before some years ago, but their whole family lives here and they are all going to be there. So basically, there's going to be a bunch of people who are all strangers to me... But I'm sure it'll be a lot of fun! And I'll get to see a new place! Yay!

A couple of weeks ago we went to the Knights game. That was aaaaawesome! (<- a video clip they play after every Knights goal (3s-7s))

At the game our row won coupons for free cupcakes! It was good but a bit too sweet, a bit too big and waaaay too difficult to eat. I should've done this.

Victoria Park is my favorite place here because of these little critters! This one was hanging by it's hind legs while eating a peanut. Acrobatic!

Why do you have to call non-meat meat, eh?

Patio season officially opened.

I guess that's what they're called in English... Not quite as innocent as 'pajunkissat'

And then there's this. Oh, Canada!
(it does not really contain any marijuana though)

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The end is neigh. And I can feel it. The sadness of leaving and all this ending soon is already here.... 

Four months is a damn short period of time.